This post has been a long time coming...be gentle with me. Over the last few days some things have popped up to remind me of past relationships. When the memories crept back into my conscious mind so did some uncomfortable feelings: shame, humiliation, failure, anger and sadness. Of course, if I dig a little harder… Continue reading Hindsight and Gratitude
Category: gratitude
Moments of Grace
These moments are everywhere – every moment, really, is a moment of grace. None of this is deserved. Yes, I’ve worked for what I have. But, do I deserve anymore than the next person? No. Yes, I’ve tried to cultivate meaningful relationships. But, I do deserve loving people in my life more than someone else?… Continue reading Moments of Grace
I Am Not
I’ve got quite a few things ruminating in my mind. In fact, after last Sunday I had a blog post in mind but didn’t make time to write it. Then, earlier this evening I listened to Rob Bell’s latest podcast, and knew what I would write about that. Little did I know what was in… Continue reading I Am Not
Explore
For the first time last year I chose one word to guide me through 2017 – gratitude. I chose that word because I knew I’d need something to balance the grief and pain I was (am) experiencing. I decided to get ahead of that a bit by choosing a word that would force me to… Continue reading Explore
2017: A Year in Review
2017. Another tough one. I have thoughts on my hopes for 2018, but before I move forward, I want to look back and reflect on what this year taught me. Side note: This took me three hours to put together! Reviewing my calendar, looking through past blog posts, scrolling through pictures... Although I touch on… Continue reading 2017: A Year in Review
Off Guard
I get caught off guard a lot. I should be used to it by now, but I’m not. There are moments when I am grateful for quiet mornings to myself, when I don’t have to worry about anyone but the dog and I. We can go for a walk, or not. I fix my own… Continue reading Off Guard
Even so
This month 12 years ago I saw my friend Katy for the last time. She was in town for the holidays and doing some fundraising for the organization she worked for in Phoenix. During her time at home with lots of people vying for her time, we found a morning for the two of us… Continue reading Even so
#12 Recap
I ran my twelfth half-marathon today. I know, it’s hard for me to believe too! All week I was anxious about the weather. One day it called for storms all morning, the next day nothing. Back and forth all week. It was nerve wracking! I can handle rain, but not in 40 degree weather! Thankfully… Continue reading #12 Recap
PO(o)F
In the last few weeks two different doctors came to the same conclusion – premature ovarian failure, or POF for short. I think an extra “o” should be added – PO(o)F seems more appropriate. Seeing the positive sign on a stick, poof. Going to the doctor’s office and comparing with other pregnant women, poof. Feeling… Continue reading PO(o)F
One Year
Thanks to the “On this day” feature on Facebook, I was reminded that one year ago today I posted my first blog. I remember being anxious about pushing the publish button. What if no one would read it? I soon came to realize, it didn’t matter if anyone read it or not. That’s not the… Continue reading One Year