Living in the Midst
He can’t get settled. Any time I reposition myself in my chair, he gets up. If I have to go to the bathroom, he gets up. When I start talking to someone on Zoom, he gets up. I know how you feel, buddy — I'm out of sorts too. At the base of my chair… Continue reading I Know How You Feel, Buddy
It’s hard for me to take a break. It’s hard to set things down. However, I realize it’s time to give myself permission to be. Permission to Be Present I need permission to be present. Social media has been a huge gift to me, especially over the last year. I’ve met some amazing infertility warriors,… Continue reading Permission to Be
I’ve been a planner my whole life. Even as a kid I was always asking “what are we doing next?” or “what are we doing tomorrow?” I liked to have a plan; I want to know what to expect. In general, this is a good thing. It keeps me organized. Planning ahead assures that vacations… Continue reading My New Plan
Before I jump into today's post, I want to share some exciting news about the progress of my book! Yesterday I finished up the book proposal! Of course, I still need to edit it, research publishers, write query letters and... finish the book! But, right now I'm celebrating this next milestone in the process of… Continue reading Learning to Trust
I don’t really know where it came from, but it popped into my head and I knew it was my one little word for 2019: Open. Unlike Gratitude — a word I chose because I knew I needed to focus on being grateful in 2017 — and Explore — a word I chose because I… Continue reading Open
This post has been a long time coming...be gentle with me. Over the last few days some things have popped up to remind me of past relationships. When the memories crept back into my conscious mind so did some uncomfortable feelings: shame, humiliation, failure, anger and sadness. Of course, if I dig a little harder… Continue reading Hindsight and Gratitude
I often start my day with a poem or blessing – to get my mind moving, to get beyond the thoughts rolling around in my head. More often than not, these words of others bring together ideas I’ve had but were unsure how to express. This morning was no different. From John O’Donohue, I read… Continue reading Interim
I’m currently in the middle of reading Liz Gilbert’s book Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear. I appreciate that she writes in short bursts – I can read a bit and let that section soak in awhile before reading the next. A couple days ago I read a section she entitled “Motives.” I started thinking… Continue reading Motive
Thanks to my sabbatical last fall, I have a better understanding of what rest looks like. Previously I thought it was a nap or sitting quietly or meditating. Rest can be those, but it’s also much more. For me rest is slowing down – so instead of running, I walk; instead of reading a whole… Continue reading Rest
Yesterday, after I received communion and returned to the pew, I started praying: I trust you, but I’m still sad. Over and over I prayed: I trust you, but I’m still sad. Then I realized that’s not what I meant. You know when people say things like, I love you, but… or Good job, but…… Continue reading And