This post has been a long time coming...be gentle with me. Over the last few days some things have popped up to remind me of past relationships. When the memories crept back into my conscious mind so did some uncomfortable feelings: shame, humiliation, failure, anger and sadness. Of course, if I dig a little harder… Continue reading Hindsight and Gratitude
Category: feelings
Space
I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions although starting last year I decided to pick one word for the year. That word is more of a guiding principle – not a resolution to be better or have a better life. The one word gives me focus when I start to feel off track; it reminds me… Continue reading Space
2017: A Year in Review
2017. Another tough one. I have thoughts on my hopes for 2018, but before I move forward, I want to look back and reflect on what this year taught me. Side note: This took me three hours to put together! Reviewing my calendar, looking through past blog posts, scrolling through pictures... Although I touch on… Continue reading 2017: A Year in Review
Words have Power
Words have power. I know you know this. The power of words isn’t new to any of us. We learned this lesson early, too early. In kindergarten when someone made fun of your name. In middle school when you got called mean names. Words hurt despite the cliché that says otherwise… A few years ago… Continue reading Words have Power
A Basket, Towel and Rock
Yesterday Brad mentioned how I can go seamlessly from conversation with a human into one with an animal without really noticing. He’s right. I talk to Denali as if she’s another person in the room. Brad often gets frustrated because at times it’s hard to know if I’m talking to him or the dog. Last… Continue reading A Basket, Towel and Rock
Anger
Let it be messenger, come to tell us what we most need to know, hard though its words may be to hear. Trust, even when you cannot believe it, that it will carry its own consolations, that it knows what to do with what has shattered. Trust that the other face of anger is courage,… Continue reading Anger
Gaps
I’ve been busy lately. Not in a bad way – I enjoy (almost) everything I do. However, my schedule has been full. Last week when I met with my therapist, I noticed I did a lot of talking about what I’m doing but not how I’m doing. I noticed that I was a little disconnected… Continue reading Gaps
Fences
I’m going through my documents clearing away old ones that I haven’t looked at in years (I still had weekly youth group schedules from 2001!). In the process I’ve come across some interesting documents. One was of several pages of poems written by youth on a retreat many years ago – they were in high… Continue reading Fences
Feelings
One evening during our vacation I got teary about a situation and Brad said, with concern in his voice, “I think you feel too much.” He might be right. A couple evenings before that we were at dinner – oceanfront view, warm breeze. It was the perfect setting for our beach vacation. There were even… Continue reading Feelings