I wrote this post a year ago. I think my assumption then is true since it applies again this year... it's all Holy Week. I've made some adaptations for our current context, otherwise it's the same post from 2019. Itโs Holy Week. And Iโm feeling it, deeply. Iโm feeling the tension and the betrayal and… Continue reading It’s All Holy Week
Category: grief
A Rainbow After the Storm
Five years ago I posted this photo on my quilting facebook page: I wrote that I was using up scraps to create some colorful quilt blocks. The next day I put them in the closet and there they sat for four years. I had no idea then that these squares would be part of a… Continue reading A Rainbow After the Storm
Only One Step
Iโm trying to figure out why running another half-marathon in six weeks feels easier than working on my book. Why am I willing to put on my running shoes and go outside for a run, but picking up the edits to my chapters paralyzes me? For a week now Iโve been trying to answer all… Continue reading Only One Step
Life is Hard
Iโve been thinking about this a lot lately. People outside the infertility community read my posts and resonate with what I write. Not because they wanted to be a mom and their bodies couldnโt do it, but because they understand what it is like to face a hard thing. They know what it means to… Continue reading Life is Hard
Winter Knows Best
I updated my readers about my book progress in yesterday's newsletter. If you don't receive it, you can subscribe here. If I tell myself that winter knows best, maybe Iโll start to believe it. I mean, what can it hurt? At the start of the week the highs were in the 60s, the sun was… Continue reading Winter Knows Best
All is Well
I always have a plan I had a plan. I knew what I was going to write about this week. It all hinged on getting a project done so Iโd have pictures to accompany the writing. Having this plan in place eased my mind because I knew my time to write would be limited. And… Continue reading All is Well
It Is Good
Last week on my Wednesday instagram post, which is always a quote Iโve found to be helpful on this journey, I shared this from Amateur Nester: โWith a baby or without, you are valuable, you are whole, and you matter.โ And then I named my truth, something thatโs been on my mind a lot recently:… Continue reading It Is Good
We Get to Choose Our Own Speed
Iโm starting to run regularly with our one-year-old chocolate lab these days. Weโre still working through it โ my job is to let him know heโs not in charge. Unfortunately, Iโm not always good at my job. The other day I noticed our shadow. He was in front, I was in back and there was… Continue reading We Get to Choose Our Own Speed
This is Self-Care
โTalk to myself the way I would talk to someone I really love and whom Iโm trying to comfort in the midst of a meltdownโ (Daring Greatly, pg. 80). Iโm trying to follow Brenรฉโs advice (yes, weโre on a first name basis), but itโs hard today. Iโm beating myself up. Iโm telling myself that Iโm… Continue reading This is Self-Care
Yes, I’m Aware. But, Are You?
Because most people who deal with infertility are trying to find alternative ways to get pregnant, I have not found much comfort or solace in that community. Iโve checked out Facebook groups and Instagram hashtags and immediately turned for the other direction. So, itโs not all that surprising that I was unaware of what this… Continue reading Yes, I’m Aware. But, Are You?