Itโs been a hard week. Iโve had to follow my own advice. I let myself feel what I needed to feel. I tried not to berate myself for realizing that something was harder than I thought it would be. Iโm tired โ mostly emotionally. On top of that cramps and a period. Can I start… Continue reading Scattered and Jumbled
Author: Anne Brock
It’s Not Your Fault
Next week, September 16-22, is World Childless Week, founded by Stephanie Phillips. She invited writers to send in pieces based on specific themes. I submitted three essays and I believe one was selected, which will be posted on Monday โ the theme for that day is Our Stories. The prompt for Tuesday is Letters from… Continue reading It’s Not Your Fault
I Think I Am Nesting
I think I am nesting. I agree, it feels strange to me too. No, Iโm not pregnant. No, Iโm not adopting. No, I donโt have a surrogate. There is no plan of a baby coming to live at our house. But, I think I am nesting. Itโs been going on for a few weeks, months… Continue reading I Think I Am Nesting
Say No to Say Yes
Twice in the last week Iโve decided to say no to say yes. To make room for something new and beautiful, I have to set some things aside โ maybe temporarily, maybe forever. Iโm not a car person. I was perfectly happy with my 2005 Oldsmobile Alero. I picked that car because it showed the… Continue reading Say No to Say Yes
I’m Scared to Write a Book
I'll just jump right in a say it: I'm scared to write a book. But, let me back up and give you some context. I started working on my book in May using a three prong approach: voice, audience and book. Iโve explored my voice: what do I have to contribute, how is my contribution… Continue reading I’m Scared to Write a Book
We Get to Choose Our Own Speed
Iโm starting to run regularly with our one-year-old chocolate lab these days. Weโre still working through it โ my job is to let him know heโs not in charge. Unfortunately, Iโm not always good at my job. The other day I noticed our shadow. He was in front, I was in back and there was… Continue reading We Get to Choose Our Own Speed
A Good, Full Life
How do I live a good, full life in the midst of infertility? Two practices have really helped me in my healing:1. Staying present.2. Paying attention to ordinary things. Let me show you what I mean: I started listening to the RENT soundtrack over twenty years ago when my freshman year roommate introduced me to… Continue reading A Good, Full Life
Today I Turn Forty
I remember my dad turning forty. There was a bulletin board in the lower level of the church โ it read, โLordy, Lordy, our pastorโs forty!โ I think there were some tombstones pinned up as well. I remember my mom turning forty too. We were in the community room at the church she was serving.… Continue reading Today I Turn Forty
It’s Okay to Smile
I remember back when I was sad all the time, back when I first found out about my infertility. Even though I was devastated and in the throes of grief, every now and then Iโd hear something or see something that would cause me to smile. At first it felt really weird and almost sacrilegious… Continue reading It’s Okay to Smile
A Turtle in the Storm
I jumped into this book writing process with both feet once I finally made the decision to go for it. I started posting regularly on Instagram. I began creating an editorial calendar around the content I shared. I got some help to update my website and create a logo. I was doing it all non-stop. … Continue reading A Turtle in the Storm