The first time I thought I might be pregnant I wanted to just know one way or the other. So, I started googling โhow to tell if youโre pregnantโ and โcould ____ mean Iโm pregnant?โ These questions led me to message boards and down the rabbit hole of a myriad of abbreviations like 5dpo (five… Continue reading Searching for Certainty
Author: Anne Brock
On Productivity and Busyness
Some rambling thoughts on productivity and busyness Iโve been this way for as long as I can remember. On family vacations everyone would just be hanging out, not really โdoingโ anything, so Iโd chime in: what are we doing now? I wanted a plan; I wanted to know what to expect next. The same is… Continue reading On Productivity and Busyness
It’s All Holy Week
I wrote this post a year ago. I think my assumption then is true since it applies again this year... it's all Holy Week. I've made some adaptations for our current context, otherwise it's the same post from 2019. Itโs Holy Week. And Iโm feeling it, deeply. Iโm feeling the tension and the betrayal and… Continue reading It’s All Holy Week
This Feels Familiar
Iโm straying a bit from my usual content today. I suppose weโre all straying a bit from our usual content! Hereโs a story from an experience I had many years ago. I trust youโll see the connections to our current situation. Much of what we're experiencing now feels familiar. Itโs only an election In 2007 I… Continue reading This Feels Familiar
We’ve Been Living in the Midst
When I decided to create a separate Instagram account and revamp my webpage last summer, I struggled to identify a name. I didnโt want to pigeon hole myself into only writing about infertility for the rest of my life. It was my hope that 10, 20, or even 30 years from now Iโd have other… Continue reading We’ve Been Living in the Midst
I Know How You Feel, Buddy
He canโt get settled. Any time I reposition myself in my chair, he gets up. If I have to go to the bathroom, he gets up. When I start talking to someone on Zoom, he gets up. I know how you feel, buddy โ I'm out of sorts too. At the base of my chair… Continue reading I Know How You Feel, Buddy
Living the Life Unexpected
Iโm honored to be part of Jody Dayโs blog tour to promote the 2nd edition of Living the Life Unexpected: How to Find Hope, Meaning and a Fulfilling Future Without Children. If you havenโt read the earlier edition, you can check out the introduction and chapter one here for free! There is a list of… Continue reading Living the Life Unexpected
A Rainbow After the Storm
Five years ago I posted this photo on my quilting facebook page: I wrote that I was using up scraps to create some colorful quilt blocks. The next day I put them in the closet and there they sat for four years. I had no idea then that these squares would be part of a… Continue reading A Rainbow After the Storm
A Different Ending
There are a lot of TV show spoilers in this post. However, most of the shows are older, so itโs likely youโve seen them. If not, well, sorry about that! Iโve talked about how infertility never goes away. Reminders of my inability to create a child are around me all the time. Reminders of how… Continue reading A Different Ending
Only One Step
Iโm trying to figure out why running another half-marathon in six weeks feels easier than working on my book. Why am I willing to put on my running shoes and go outside for a run, but picking up the edits to my chapters paralyzes me? For a week now Iโve been trying to answer all… Continue reading Only One Step