Living in the Midst
As friends and family walked into the sanctuary they received a small stone. My uncle asked if it was for throwing at us when we walked down the aisle. I rolled my eyes and we all laughed. It was an odd thing to hand out for a wedding ceremony, I’ll give him that. A rock… Continue reading A Bowl Full of Stones
On being seen... or not, as the case may be Last fall I shared how I felt dismissed at my annual gynecology appointment. "Being seen" is not how I would describe that interaction. Through that experience I realized I had to be my own advocate. I couldn’t wait for someone else to speak up for… Continue reading On Being Seen
If you haven’t picked up on this yet, I like my routines. It helps me keep order in my life. One of my routines is to write a weekly blog post. However, as of yesterday evening I didn’t have any well-formed thoughts in my head, so I decided to let the routine go. I was… Continue reading Always Infertile
A friend recently asked if I’d tell her about Mother’s Day, so here I am telling you too. I don’t go to church on Mother’s Day anymore. Well, to be completely honest, I don’t go to church much at all anymore. But, that’s a post for another day. A whole church service all about mothers?… Continue reading About Mother’s Day
The first time I thought I might be pregnant I wanted to just know one way or the other. So, I started googling “how to tell if you’re pregnant” and “could ____ mean I’m pregnant?” These questions led me to message boards and down the rabbit hole of a myriad of abbreviations like 5dpo (five… Continue reading Searching for Certainty
When I decided to create a separate Instagram account and revamp my webpage last summer, I struggled to identify a name. I didn’t want to pigeon hole myself into only writing about infertility for the rest of my life. It was my hope that 10, 20, or even 30 years from now I’d have other… Continue reading We’ve Been Living in the Midst
I’m honored to be part of Jody Day’s blog tour to promote the 2nd edition of Living the Life Unexpected: How to Find Hope, Meaning and a Fulfilling Future Without Children. If you haven’t read the earlier edition, you can check out the introduction and chapter one here for free! There is a list of… Continue reading Living the Life Unexpected
Five years ago I posted this photo on my quilting facebook page: I wrote that I was using up scraps to create some colorful quilt blocks. The next day I put them in the closet and there they sat for four years. I had no idea then that these squares would be part of a… Continue reading A Rainbow After the Storm
There are a lot of TV show spoilers in this post. However, most of the shows are older, so it’s likely you’ve seen them. If not, well, sorry about that! I’ve talked about how infertility never goes away. Reminders of my inability to create a child are around me all the time. Reminders of how… Continue reading A Different Ending
I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. People outside the infertility community read my posts and resonate with what I write. Not because they wanted to be a mom and their bodies couldn’t do it, but because they understand what it is like to face a hard thing. They know what it means to… Continue reading Life is Hard