Living in the Midst
The first time I thought I might be pregnant I wanted to just know one way or the other. So, I started googling “how to tell if you’re pregnant” and “could ____ mean I’m pregnant?” These questions led me to message boards and down the rabbit hole of a myriad of abbreviations like 5dpo (five… Continue reading Searching for Certainty
Some rambling thoughts on productivity and busyness I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. On family vacations everyone would just be hanging out, not really “doing” anything, so I’d chime in: what are we doing now? I wanted a plan; I wanted to know what to expect next. The same is… Continue reading On Productivity and Busyness
I wrote this post a year ago. I think my assumption then is true since it applies again this year... it's all Holy Week. I've made some adaptations for our current context, otherwise it's the same post from 2019. It’s Holy Week. And I’m feeling it, deeply. I’m feeling the tension and the betrayal and… Continue reading It’s All Holy Week
I’m straying a bit from my usual content today. I suppose we’re all straying a bit from our usual content! Here’s a story from an experience I had many years ago. I trust you’ll see the connections to our current situation. Much of what we're experiencing now feels familiar. It’s only an election In 2007 I… Continue reading This Feels Familiar
When I decided to create a separate Instagram account and revamp my webpage last summer, I struggled to identify a name. I didn’t want to pigeon hole myself into only writing about infertility for the rest of my life. It was my hope that 10, 20, or even 30 years from now I’d have other… Continue reading We’ve Been Living in the Midst
He can’t get settled. Any time I reposition myself in my chair, he gets up. If I have to go to the bathroom, he gets up. When I start talking to someone on Zoom, he gets up. I know how you feel, buddy — I'm out of sorts too. At the base of my chair… Continue reading I Know How You Feel, Buddy
I’m honored to be part of Jody Day’s blog tour to promote the 2nd edition of Living the Life Unexpected: How to Find Hope, Meaning and a Fulfilling Future Without Children. If you haven’t read the earlier edition, you can check out the introduction and chapter one here for free! There is a list of… Continue reading Living the Life Unexpected
Five years ago I posted this photo on my quilting facebook page: I wrote that I was using up scraps to create some colorful quilt blocks. The next day I put them in the closet and there they sat for four years. I had no idea then that these squares would be part of a… Continue reading A Rainbow After the Storm
There are a lot of TV show spoilers in this post. However, most of the shows are older, so it’s likely you’ve seen them. If not, well, sorry about that! I’ve talked about how infertility never goes away. Reminders of my inability to create a child are around me all the time. Reminders of how… Continue reading A Different Ending
I’m trying to figure out why running another half-marathon in six weeks feels easier than working on my book. Why am I willing to put on my running shoes and go outside for a run, but picking up the edits to my chapters paralyzes me? For a week now I’ve been trying to answer all… Continue reading Only One Step